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I grew up with games like resident evil, parasite eve,silent hill and the likes. But for some effing reasons i always seem to need my brother's help on boss battles. That was when I was a kid. And so when i grew up I get so frustrated in these games whenever it took me ages to finish a certain boss battle. So much for not being trained enough as a kid.
Anyhoo, the last game that i got hooked up with was Heavenly Swords, which i wasnt able to finish because my brother brought it back with him to the states =p but i was in the last stage withouth having any help from anyone!!! Grrr!!! I am frustrated still. Oh and i miss playing Assassin's creed as well -.- it's freakin awesome playing it on ps3. Oh gosh..ps3..is soooo wonderful T.T


anyhoo..im here to tell some stuff about the game im playing... Haunting grounds, it was released back 2005 so im kinda late on this one, but all of my games are somewhere..at friend's houses..i dunno exactly...so i stumbled upon this game..one of the few games i havent played because of the busy time. So basically Haunting grounds is pretty much just like clock tower...But more frustrating..and scarier=p Why? Because Fiona has real emotions...freakish emotions, unlike Alyssa (from Clock tower3) who runs so calmly when chased by a boogie man!!! lol. So yeah...what makes the game great is not the creepy sounds, or the things that would give you heart attacks, but the way the character reacts on things. And of course, the game would just be a trash without Hewie..cute dog.. Even I was relieved finding a buddy beside me =) cutie. He looks like my dog..who ..uh...already passed away..='(

I freakin hate Daniella...she's a bitch.. and yeah i would definitely be hating riccardo and lorenzo when i get to that level.
Im hoping i could get to that level...as i dont have much time =p
I've seen all possible endings on youtube. And im really sure..that i would have a hard time with Riccardo because he has a freakin gun...so i'd definitely be frustrated.. I am now. T.T

So..uh..yeah..this game is definitely great to get yourself hooked and to spend your time away as well. ^_~





Anyway..Fiona reminds me of Lily from Tekken 5. Maybe they're cousins =p

Perhaps this will make you furious. Okay..Screw me. I know we made an agreement. But I wanted to keep this. I want a memory that will never fade. I told you, someday we'd be making that space in time that will only be ours. But things are beyond our control..that promise will not happen anymore. So if it's alright.. i want to keep this.

This is something that makes me cry and happy at the same time. It was never impossible for me to forget. But I don't want to forget someone like you...Maybe that love would be gone forever...but the memory of meeting someone like you is what i want to stay. Because you are worth caring for.





No more of this. I promise.

Our house is currently under renovation... my mom wants some change so... be it. Anyway, because of that we sleep in one room, me, mom and dad. So last night, when we were about to sleep, they were talking..and it's kinda cute coz they were reminiscing about old days, when they were still at the courting stage.. heh..i'm thinking "ohhh they're getting old.." haha.. But really, it was really cute..

Most people take for granted little blessings like this.

Wouldn't it be nice to picture yourself one day laying with that one person you promised your whole life with and together look back on how wonderful things were because you are together?

Oh shush! nuff' dramas. I hate rain...seriously! o.o

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BY THE RIVER PIEDRA, I SAT DOWN AND WEPT -Paulo Coelho


This book have some kind of magical effect on me.. >> And i mean it in a sometimes good way but mostly bad way... well depends on my status...ughh...



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Jeez!!! how i hate this one song... much more the singer o.o hahaha

"teardrops on my guitar" << puhllleaasee...

After not hearing from him for about a month, i have finally been able to talk to him. And He said, he wants it over. Actually..I did. And then he began to say all these things... I see words, I hear him talk...but it didn't made sense at all. I wondered... why I wanted to talk to him still. I wondered why I was listening...and talking... I wondered why I even let all these start. Of course i knew it's over...but why was I still there? What was I hoping?...

I've met few people in my life but never did I want to commit. I fear... I won't even deny that. And every pointless journey as such of course came to an end. Most of the time their excuse is that I deserve someone else...BETTER! They never told me that upfront..but somehow managed to pass the message across. And the last one was no different. Of course... How could he be different..He is a man still. The only difference is that..He told it to me straight. " There are other men out there...waiting to be with you.." Bullshit. He should have come up with a better lie.

It sucks loosing someone who could make you feel that you're perfect just the way you are. I needed someone to blame. I wanted to blame him, or me, or someone else. But there's no one to blame. Could I blame fate? time? distance? It was no one's fault... What hurts is that we both wanted this. But I'm finding it hard to let go. And he's just doing fine..

" I cant keep hurting you.." And then it struck me. All this time while loving him..I just keep on hurting..and he always knew that. I wanted to tell him "no..that's not true.." but there was no point in lying.

Lies. I wish I could see what were lies and what weren't. I wish he was lying when he told me everything. But I knew He wasn't. And I know he was right.

So we tried the let's-still-be-friends crap. Of course it was a lie...and i actually fell for it. Jerk.

And he told me "someday.. when we meet again.. if you want to give it a try once more...we could."

I've always had a hard time letting go. He shouldn't have said that.. he shouldn't have.

when we're both better than what we are now...maybe then..maybe..

there was a time when I had the power to change anything i want to.
and then there are times like this... everything is beyond what i can reach. all you have to do is accept.

It has been a constant waiting. And i don't think you care at all.

Go abroad!
Be a nurse!
A caregiver!
Be a DH!
A construction worker!
Be anything! as long as its abroad!
DO networking! earn money the easiest way!
Earn a million in just a few months!

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Yes, there is nothing wrong with that. But i wonder too why people think it's impractical nowadays to follow your dreams, if one say i want to be a doctor and give service...they would say ..just be a nurse you'll earn a lot more!
If someone says i want to be a photographer, a designer, a journalist, an artist,a painter, a musician! they would question you whyyy??? Is it not important anymore to be happy in what you're doing..to follow what you want and be happy even if it gives little to your bank account but gives fully to your happiness, self contentment and achievement?

Earning big money can never be an achievement. It's never a measurement of how happy a person is. Really...

im breaking down. Ive been trying to suppress my tears from coming out. I feel pain in every breath i take. Not the kind of pain where your heart gets break because your love has found another.. nor the kind of pain when a wonderful thing has ended. I feel the kind of pain where you have found the right one and you know you have been founded as well...yet for so many unknown reasons you're not together...and day by day..its seems impossible for that day to even happen.

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I dont even have to say Be strong.. I just am...too much love i guess. Im just not used being on this side.

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